Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

The easier I want things to be, the harder they seem to be. Also, I am realizing that if i decide to put something off, it just makes it that much harder to complete. Do you ever feel like everything in your life is pulling you in a different direction?
There are a lot of people in my life that I have a deep respect for. This respect usually comes from seeing them do things that have made them successful. I feel like a large part of "growing up" is deciding what you will do to make yourself successful while at the same time making sure that you are happy. When a young person dies, it is common to hear that they "lived their life to the fullest every day". Perhaps this was true; or perhaps it is just how their loved ones want to remember the life of the person who will no longer be able to achieve.
Sometimes I wonder, if I walk out into the street and get hit by a car tomorrow, will my family be able to say that I always lived my life to the fullest? If they do, will it be a lie? I think that your life has to be a balance at all times between working hard to make yourself a better person, and also stopping to enjoy each moment of your life for what it is. The journey has always been more important to me than the destination, and that has meant that I have been afforded some great experiences thus far in my life, and it has also gotten me into trouble. School work has deadlines, and if you don't meet them, there are consequences. I can live with that.
When I am swept out to sea in a freakishly strong rip current while snorkeling in the virgin islands, I am sure that I will not be worrying that I got a 62 on my last history test. I will however want to be able to think to myself that I took full advantage of every opportunity afforded to me, whether it was taking an amazing vacation with friends, or the ability to get a college degree. When it is my time to go, I want to be able to be at peace with everything that I have done, and think that people will know that I had a good ride. What do you think will be most important to you when your moments are running out?